No longer phoning it in~

Today my body is so sore. I really gave it my all the last two days at aerobics. I figure I will try a little bit more each week to step it up. Now I'm paying for it-haha.

I really have to say that other than being in pain I am just so happy and content right now. I'm so pleased that I joined the gym and finished the detox.

The detox was so super hard but really gave me a newfound appreciation for food. Before the detox I always had a strong craving for all kinds of bad foods daily. Even on days I did eat the right number of points they weren't always the best points. Weekends were especially brutal.

Doing the detox for three weeks now makes everything I eat taste so good. Just a simple bowl of high fiber cereal with skim milk tastes really delicious and sweet.

Coming home from work and packing lunches is no longer a huge struggle for me I just pack them eat a yogurt and I'm fine.

The detox isn't for everyone but for me it was great.

I was really apprehensive about joining the gym. In the past I would join and either not go or join and phone it in when I was there. I thought this time I would too.

I decided to totally change my attitude when going to the gym. I no longer feel like this embarrassed fat girl. I pay my membership like everyone else and I deserve to be there.

I walk in with my head held proud and I give eye contact and smile. Most of the guys there are so busy looking at themselves in the mirror anyways-haha.

I'm totally loving it. The classes are so fun, the music is awesome and I know for a fact I am pushing myself 100 times harder than I ever would at home. I'm so glad this time is different.

Setting Goals.

I'm feeling really sore today from yesterday's Body Combat class. I must have kicked butt-haha. I've been asked by Katie what my new goals are gonna be. Honestly I really don't know.

I don't want to get too tied to the scale and discouraged since I'm working out a lot. I will have to post so more pics soon.

I guess by the end of November I would like to have another 10 pounds gone-that would be lovely. I can't wait to buy some new clothes in November at the black Friday sales-gonna be fun I hope.

Today is Kelly's procedure-praying for a miracle.

Weight Loss and a cake~

The detox is over. YAH! I weighed in and lost another pound. I was both happy and sad at the same time. I was happy because all week I could hardly bring myself to eat since all the food was so gross to me by then and I didn't feel like I was going to lose anything. Along the same line I was sad that I went all week eating hardly anything I liked, exercising and only losing 1 pound. My pic of the scale is getting worse because you can't see the 200 and the 2 at the same time. Guess I'll just have to go into the 190's to make it easier-haha. So hard to believe I'm getting so close to Onederland. Its scary though because I don't want to get my hopes up and start messing up this roll I've been on.

The gym is still awesome and I can't wait to get there today @ 4:30. What a change it is to actually enjoy exercise. I don't feel really big and heavy doing aerobics either-its so strange. You would think it would be one of the hardest exercises being overweight but I can keep up so I probably sell myself short and I probably can do a lot of other exercises too.

Kelly is now in Poland for her operation. She left on Friday and her operation is tomorrow. This past Tuesday I made her and Rodney this cake:
Its a four layer Walnut, Praline Cake with Homemade Cream Cheese Frosting with Chocolate Fudge Frosting in between the layers. Kelly & Rodney both have the biggest sweet tooth you could imagine-even worse than mine. Kelly called me 4 times on Tuesday night to talk about how much they loved it and her mom emailed me too. haha. I love feeding people who love food.

All weekend I watched Cupcake Wars and Unwrapped. It made me think more and more about someday opening a bakery. Maybe a Cupcake Bakery. Maybe someday when my financial situation is finally cleaned up.

Anyways I should be off. Today is the day I get to have coffee for the first time in 21 days. Sandra and I are having Subway for lunch too and then its back to Weight Watchers for me. 9 pounds in 3 weeks is great for me but if I do end up doing this detox again before the wedding I'm pretty sure I'll only do it for 2 weeks.

The end is near~

I am three days away from this detox being over!!! I am so happy that the end is near. I have had the worst cold this week. Really bad earaches, sore throat, stuffy nose. Being sick while on the detox has been challenging cause I want comfort food.

I did three aerobic classes so far this week-still loving them. Sandra & I are having Subway on Monday and I'm living for it-haha.

Onto week three~

Well everyone I'm really excited because I lost 4 pds again this week. This detox diet can be really hard but I haven't lost this great ever so I guess its worth it.

This past week I've had lots of energy and I did four classes of aerobics in a row-Mon, Tue, Wed, & Thur. The plan is to do it again this week. The classes are so fun and the music is awesome.

All week Cole is looking at me really different and he said I'm starting to look like a different person. My clothes feel a lot looser and it feels great.

I went out and bought a new pair of workout pants the kind that is really thin so it will be easier to move in them-the one's I wore all week had me hauling them up in the back during the workout. I hemmed them yesterday morning and they look and feel great. I also bought this wicked sports bra from Walmart for only $17 that is actually big enough to cover my chest and gives me support :)

I have a nasty cold right now-lots of people have it at work but all in all I have to say life is pretty good right now. Jerry is out of the hospital and mom said he is walking a couple of times a day-seems like this scare might have changed him-hopefully.

Kelly leaves on Friday for her operation-she got lots of money at her fundraiser so that is great.

I was really missing cheese on this diet-we can only have goat's milk cheese. So on Saturday Cole found me Feta Cheese made from goats milk. We had omelette's yesterday morning using it-so good and then I baked some chicken with Feta on top-great again-this will make this week easier :)

Bye for now peeps~

Week coming to an end

Well people I think I got it-finally. The exercise bug. I love the aerobics at the gym. Yesterday Kelly called me last minute to go to the hospital with her and I said yes.

Afterwards I was freaking because I wanted to be quick so I could workout. Before I would have been like wow awesome an excuse not to workout-even if I had the time.

Yesterday was Body Attack and man at one point I felt like I was going to puke. My calves are still pretty sore but I feel great.

I've been eating the same thing pretty much everyday so this detox is boring for me-hoping Monday when I weigh in I see another loss.

We are doing overtime tonight and relaxing tomorrow-at least that is the plan as of right now.
Have a great weekend.

Update~

Just a little update to let you know I'm loving the gym. I just got back from a Body Step class and yesterday I did Body Combat.

I'm proud that I have the stamina to stay up with everyone and my step co-ordination will catch up (hopefully).

I'm sticking hard to the detox even though it is super boring.

Better go the sweat is dripping over my eyelids....

Week 1 complete~

This is now my second week of the detox. I weighed myself and I lost 4 pds. I am now into the 200's-finally!!!

This weekend was especially hard to follow the detox because my stepfather got admitted into the ICU on Friday night and Cole & I rushed to New Hampshire to be with them.

Mom called on Friday night and Cole came home from work and we just shoved clothing into bags, grabbed our passports and were off. I didn't think to pack my detox needs.

They didn't know if he would make it through the night so the 5 1/2 hr drive was grueling. Sitting there thinking about mom being scared and all alone was excruciating.

We made it in around 4:30 and Jerry was still pretty bad. Jerry & I have sometimes had a tumultuous relationship but seeing him hooked up to everything and disoriented was really sad and frightening.

Saturday was the longest day in history and my main focus was trying to get my mother to eat and grab a bit of rest. Finally she succumbed to my nagging and ate.

Saturday afternoon Jerry finally took a turn for the better. Turns out that he has gone undiagnosed with sleep apnea for years and years. So his brain hasn't been getting enough oxygen for years and years. That could explain why he doesn't have any energy. I guess that is why he drinks so much water and ice tea. He brain tells his body he is thirsty, etc and that is why his sodium was so dangerously low. Crazy.

Finally by Saturday night we were out of the woods. So all day Saturday I managed to have some scrambled eggs in the morning, a few banana's and later a salad.

Sunday I went to McDonald's and asked for a Mcgrill with no sauce. We are heading down the road and as I am picking the meat off to eat it I notice she put in Mcgrill xtra sauce-seriously ppl! Anyways thankfully it wasn't touching the chicken.

So there you have it we came back yesterday and I felt horrible leaving mom but Jerry is doing so much better now so that is good. Wish they would give us a day or so off for when someone is so sick in your family but c'est la vie.

Onto day five~

Today is day 5 of the 21 day detox. I'm feeling great. My headaches are gone and my ring feels looser (could be in my head). This diet is really hard for me only because I guess I'm a fussy eater. There aren't much things on the list I enjoy eating.

The one good thing is that I'm not as interested in food now. Before when I had food in front of my I would eat it because it was there but now I eat a bit and then will push it away if I don't want more. I think this detox is really good for me to learn portion control. Now I know that no I can walk away from the food before my plate is empty.

I joined Good Life this week and so far I love it. On Wednesday I went to Body Pump and ran in to an old co-worker/friend I used to work with so that rocked especially since it was my first time going. The class was awesome but I haven't walked the same since. I'm like Bambi the first time standing-haha.

Tonight Cole is going in for overtime and I'm going to the gym (yes you read right) Imagine me going to a gym on a Friday night-haha. Then I'm making cakes for Kelly's fundraiser-they are having a silent auction.

Have a great weekend peeps. I'm not weighing myself til Monday to better see the detox for exactly one week.

This is the other painting that Cole did for Kelly's auction-its too pretty to give away. Man he is the total package-he's hot, considerate, does housework and is super talented. I'm a lucky girl~

Day 1 & 2 of 21 Day Detox Done~

Today is the 3rd day of my Detox and it cannot be worse than the first two days. The first day I mostly experienced heartburn and I didn't get a headache until around 7pm and I go to bed around 8-9pm anyways to wake up early for work.

The second day I had a headache the whole day and even contemplated leaving work to go home. I took pills but they didn't even take it away.

Today is so far so good but then again I just woke up-haha. I really miss my coffee and my sauces. I am a slave to sauces I guess.

I joined the Good Life gym on Monday and right now my ribs and stomach are so sore I could just die. So far so good with the gym too-haha.

Sandra felt really crappy yesterday too. Its really so surprising how your body gets affected by going off of "bad" things. I only drink one coffee a day but it must be a doozy.

Today I go to work, go to the gym and I can't wait to sleep. This detox isn't that exciting and I'm already dreading the weekend. I am excited that I can have corn though-yummy.

Please let this drop off a few pounds.

T Minus 1

Well tomorrow is it. I start my 21 day detox and join the gym. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared. I am. But totally in that happy-nervous way-the butterfly thingy.

Friday after work Sandra and I went to the Bulk Barn and Grocery store to stock up on some veggies, almonds, gluten free cereal, soy milk, etc. This detox is restricting as well as expensive.

I'm looking forward to the effects it will have on my body to go without some of the things that are a staple of my everyday life. Coffee is the thing I know 100% I will miss the most. Not only for the caffeine which of course will be missed and will show its side effects but mostly because of the ritual I have programmed with it.

Coffee is a beautiful color, smell, its so warm. I drink it first thing when I get to work when my co-worker friends and I are working and talking about what we did the evening before. I miss it already.

I know that it will be a big effect to give up red meat. Red meat is something I eat a lot. Its often cheaper than chicken and easy to prepare and goes in many dishes.

Sugar, chocolate and many of the carbs I'm used to will be a huge adjustment too. Even when counting points I can rely on some low point carbs to get me though.

Giving up cheese is another huge thing for me. I love it and eat it every single day-no fail. It would totally be one of my desert island food-no contest.

I have total faith that these changes will allow me to lose some weight. Joining a gym is always a scary thing for me and especially tomorrow since I'll be all by myself. I am excited about that though because I think I often used chatting with my friends as a way to avoid pushing myself too hard. I plan to get in there and sweat. I don't care what I look like to anyone but to me and Cole on our wedding day.

Weight loss, Detox and a gym membership

Hello everyone. I'm excited because I lost 1.5 pds. I am now 211.5 and pretty close to breaking into the 210's. I'm also excited because my friend Sandra and I have decided to do the Dr. Joshi 21 day Detox. I just heard about it on one of my favorite blogs Skinny Me.

Also on Monday I am joining the Good Life gym. Cole has been going there for months and I can get a family add on rate with him. I really need to kick it into gear with the exercise. Seemingly I will find any and every excuse possible. It really works out too cause we just found out that Cole has a day shift starting Sept 20 so we can go together. People I'm about to lose some weight I can feel it.

I'm getting really pumped. I can't believe that Cole will finally be off nights after 5 long years. He needs this so bad. Nights were starting to get really bad for him. He always tries to stay in good spirits but I know it was really getting him down.

So I decided on the Joshi Detox because unlike many detoxes or cleanses on this one you can actually eat and chew food, haha. I'm a little scared about giving up coffee but I gave up all soda 5 years ago July and after a week of the shakes I felt great-haha. I used to drink a lot of soda though and only drink one coffee a day so that should be good.

I'm interested to see if I will lose weight like this. I think it will be wonderful because when dieting I might have the right amount of points but they can use a tweaking-not all my points go to the healthiest things.

It will be challenging to do this detox now with the Frex coming, an exhibition that has all the rides and all the bad food. And next week is the fundraising for Kelly's surgery so there will be a ton of food and stuff but I'll just bring my own. I think I will do pretty good having someone doing this with me. Sandra is not big by no means but misery does love company-haha.

Wish me luck people. We are going to buy some stuff after work and she wants to start on Monday.
I'll try and write down what I'm feeling and post a lot during the three weeks.