This is me (now?)

Well the other day I had a small slip up, but moved on. One weird thing that I do when I eat something unplanned or over points? I hide the evidence from my fiance. Don't get me wrong its not that Cole would beat me, haha, or for the matter even notice but I find myself washing out the dishes or hiding wrappers and I think-what a complete weirdo I am. What would possess someone to do this?
I went for a walk yesterday morning and while at a stoplight this girl who also has blonde hair was wearing the same exact yoga suit as me, only about 10 times smaller OUCH THAT HURT, we probably looked like a before and after pic. In a years time I hope to be the after.

3500 calories is hard to lose.

I weigh 229 pds. There I said it. Dieting on and off for so many years can really wear a person down. I'm tired. Exhausted actually. I think a really big frustration I get from dieting is well, everything. Seeing that I still have about 100 pds to lose you would think that right now would be easy. You would think that going for a walk and cutting back a little would just melt the weight off. Well, you would be wrong.
I get 27 pts a day with weight watchers, I walk 6 times a week for at least an hour at moderate speed, I eat my 35 flex points but don't eat my activity points. Why can't I go in a drop huge numbers?
I calculated on one of those calorie counters that with my height, weight, age, activity, etc I would need to eat 2644 calories a day to maintain my weight. So I eat between 1200-1600 a day and get in activity so I do have a deficit of about 7000calories a week-should be 2pds.
I just have to keep plugging away at it and hope the numbers reflect eventually. I mean, what is the other alternative?