Showing posts with label Frustration. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Frustration. Show all posts

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Its me-I'm a gainer~

Yesterday (Wed) my friend called me after work to ask if I would go to WW with her, instead of normally on Thursday. The weather is supposed to be super bad on Thursday. I said sure.

It wasn't til I got off the phone that I realised that I had already drank about 2 litres of water. I figured what the hell. I was up .4 of a pd. I KNOW that it was totally affected by the water, I KNOW that I usually have a whole extra day. I KNOW that with working out as much as I have this week my body may be in shock.

But honestly I KNOW that I am still frustrated.

It took a lot of energy this week to force myself to eat my baby carrots. It took a lot of energy to force myself to drink all my water-which I did for four days in a row. It took a lot of energy to force myself not go on coffee runs with my friends at work. It took a lot of energy to force myself to research the sodium levels in the food I was eating. It took a lot of energy to force myself to not cry when I gained AGAIN.

I feel like people are going to think I'm lying. Like I'm not doing all I should be, like I'm dropping the ball. I guess the only thing I can do is plug away and hope eventually it catches up, or die trying :()