Its me-I'm a gainer~

Yesterday (Wed) my friend called me after work to ask if I would go to WW with her, instead of normally on Thursday. The weather is supposed to be super bad on Thursday. I said sure.

It wasn't til I got off the phone that I realised that I had already drank about 2 litres of water. I figured what the hell. I was up .4 of a pd. I KNOW that it was totally affected by the water, I KNOW that I usually have a whole extra day. I KNOW that with working out as much as I have this week my body may be in shock.

But honestly I KNOW that I am still frustrated.

It took a lot of energy this week to force myself to eat my baby carrots. It took a lot of energy to force myself to drink all my water-which I did for four days in a row. It took a lot of energy to force myself not go on coffee runs with my friends at work. It took a lot of energy to force myself to research the sodium levels in the food I was eating. It took a lot of energy to force myself to not cry when I gained AGAIN.

I feel like people are going to think I'm lying. Like I'm not doing all I should be, like I'm dropping the ball. I guess the only thing I can do is plug away and hope eventually it catches up, or die trying :()

A healty combination~

Around an hour ago I finished day 3 of the 30 day Shred-I know why it must be called that cause it feels like my muscles have been shredded and put back in my clothes.

Seriously you should see me try to walk. I knew I was out of shape but this is really crazy. Oh well no pain no gain right. I did seem to get a bigger movement with my jumping jacks so that is good.

Last night we went to Swiss Chalet and just like I said I ordered a salad instead of fries. I only stole two of Cole's to so that was good. The food was awesome as usual. It was really nice to get out with Cole during the week.

Tomorrow I go get weighed. I'm really curious about what it will say since I had a really great week food/exercise wise. I can never really tell cause my body fluctuates but whatever it says I'm still proud of the choices I made this week. Yah me.

There is this woman at work who is a little taller than me but she probably weighs 450 pds and I really feel so bad for her. She looks so uncomfortable and during my lunch break she will eat chips from the vending machine. She seems so unhappy and I just want to hug her. Its so hard seeing someone like that and not reaching out and saying how much blogging is helping me this time. I told Cole last night that this time (losing weight) feels so different-so much more attainable because of my blog and having ppl comment and care about me and my journey-thanks everyone :)

Weekly Weigh-In

Hey All-well I got weighed last night and guess what? I lost 2.4pds. I am too excited and just imagine how much I could have lost if I had the Wii Fit Already. We have been calling everyday but its still not in yet-boo to them.

Yesterday was an awesome day-I just love my job and the people I work with-we all have little chats in between listening to our ipods and it feels great. On the overnights I felt like I didn't connect with anyone and it sucked.

Cole started to feel better as he had a cold all week, I lost the weight, and I found out that they have a different leader for Thursday nights so that is awesome. Everything just went good yesterday. I leave for work in a bit and then come home, nap, prepare for company and then have fun.

I made two desserts for tomorrow night-snack and 1/2 squares and Gingerbread cake w/glaze. Cole always talks about that cake so I found a recipe-he woke up frothing at the mouth but I said sorry not til tomorrow-I can be so cruel at times.

My supper from the other day of meatballs with sweet potato fries didn't look like much when it was finished and I was disappointed but boy was it ever tasty. Really yummy tasting. Does anyone know a good way to crisp sweet potato fries?

Midweek chatter.

This week is going pretty fast. I'm waiting to get weighed in tomorrow in the hopes that there is a different leader on Thursdays. If its the same one my friend Kelly said she would go with me and we can laugh our way through it-haha.

Kelly and her husband are the couple coming for supper on Friday. Kelly has MS and is in a scooter, everyday I think of her and so appreciate the things I take for granted. She was telling me of a time when she needed a nap before going out and she couldn't get herself from her scooter to the bed so she just had to try and nap in her scooter. It really puts the day to day trials in my life into prospective. Anyways we are going to play Wii and I just love hanging out with the two of them.

Yesterday I posted about my love of scrapbooking and Katie J asked for some pics. Its really hard to get a great pic that captures them well but here are a few:

Some pics of Ben from Christmas Morning.Some pics of us building a SnowGirl with GabbySome pics of Gabby from Christmas Morning.A page of Cole & IThis is a page of me & Mom-I weigh around 195 in this pic-I miss me then :)This evening for supper I'm making homemade baked sweet potatoes fries and Sweet & Sour Meatballs done in the slow cooker. Here's the Meatballs: Tomorrow I'll be back with my weigh in results and I'll let you know how the supper turns out.

A Weigh in and Brownie Recipe

I lost another pound-woo hoo. I couldn't believe it. I was just praying to at least stay the same since I began the week on a bad note and I exceeded my expectations.

Today was probably my last weigh in at my Weight Watcher meeting since I'm going to the day shift in the new year. I was really sad cause I love my leader Ann so much and the group is pretty good. I hope I can find an evening meeting that I love too.

I brought in some recipes for my group and I even made one and brought it in.

Triple Chocolate Brownie Thins :

Serves 12 1 Wedge = 2pts Bake 15 Minutes

1oz unsweetened Chocolate, chopped

2tbsp butter

3tbsp unsweetened dutch-process cocoa

1/2 cup sugar

1 large egg

1/2 tsp vanilla

1/3 cup all purpose flour

1/8 tsp baking powder

1/8 tsp salt

1/4 cup + 2tbsp semisweet chocolate chips

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Line a 9-in round baking pan with foil allowing excess foil to extend over the rim of pan by 2 inches. Lightly spray with non-stick spray. Combine the unsweetened chocolate and butter in medium microwavable bowl. Microwave on high 1 min, then whisk in the cocoa until blended. Whisk in the sugar, egg, and vanilla. Add the flour, baking powder and salt; stir just until blended. Stir in 1/4 cup of the choc chips. Scrape batter into prepared pan, spreading to cover bottom of pan. Sprinkle with remaining chips. Bake until brownies are firm along the edges and a toothpick inserted into centre comes out with moist crumbs clinging, 12-14 minutes. Let cool completely in pan on a wire rack. Remove the brownies from pan using foil as handles. Cut into 12 wedges.

They are so good-nobody could get over at my meeting how great they were and Cole loved them too.

I had to add this pic of Pepper-she is too cute :)

Big Fat Lies & Irritations

I got weighed in Today-technically yesterday by the time but who's keeping track? I stayed the same. I can honestly say that. Still 220.6 on the nose.

Its so strange but in the past I have lied about how I did. Not on my blog but to Cole, family and friends. I would weigh in and lose .6 and I'd say I lost 1 pd. I'd gain .6 and I'd say I stayed the same. Either they are all bad with math or they are on to my game.

I can't really explain why I did this but I'm trying to change it. Even now my first instinct is to bump up the number but I nip it in the bud.

I've lied to myself plenty in the past before too. The diet starts Monday, just one cookie, etc and its gotten me nowhere quick.

I'm a person that hardly ever gets irritated but the smallest thing has irritated me for a bit and it was finally resolved today. I'm a bit embarrassed that I even cared but I did. See if it would bother you too - Here's the story :

I have been with Weight Watchers on and off for about a year and I re-membered yet again in August. So they still went by my starting weight. Somewhere along the way someone made a mistake with the starting number 245.6 and put down 245. So every time I would weigh in I would be short this .6 of a pd.

At first, like any normal human being, it didn't bother me. Then I hit my 15pd goal and they registered it as 14.4. And then I hit 20 pds and they registered it as 19.4 and I said something, and they adjusted it wrong to show 19.8-uhhh.

I bit my tongue until I hit 25pds and she registered it at 24.8-I said 245.6-220.6 is 25pds and she said oh well you can still get the award at the meeting I won't tell anyone-like I was getting away with something-but I wasn't I did this. I earned this. I bit my tongue-accepted my award and went home.

Before my meeting yesterday I brought it up, I am relentless, and one of the workers got out a calculator and went over each of my ups and downs to figure out the mistake. I don't care when the mistake was made, who made it, I just want ppl to acknowledge that 245.6-220.6=25pds.

She finally said okay I will go by your weight and we'll figure out the problem later. Don't get me wrong I love all the workers and they were more than nice and I am never rude about it but hello people-whats a girl got to do to get some scale love?

Am I completely alone? Would anyone else even have bothered with something so trivial? Do I get the crickets?

Tis the Season~

On Friday I went to get weighed and only lost .8 of a pound. It can be frustrating to do everything right and not even make it to a whole pound but I know its in there somewhere just fighting to get out so I never lose heart anymore-like I said this bod will do what it will do-no point get discouraged its what it wants and I won't let it happen.


It turns out that with the American Thanksgiving we didn't have overtime at work this week due to having a little less volume. I was actually disappointed cause I wanted that cash for Xmas but what ya gonna do?


Cole's in the Kingswood gym here-I used to be too but quit to walk outside-just love the outdoors, keeps me more motivated. Anyways they had a Christmas Party for their members as an appreciation thing. Really nice. It had all kinds of bowling, laser tag, games, prizes, pizza, cake, etc.
Not the best pics and Cole even looks sad in his, haha~I wore my Beatles shirt that I haven't fit into in ages and put on some black nail polish-Looked a bit trendy for the first time in 12 years. Disappointing that I let my 20's go by being overweight-so many trends passed me by-Not my 30's though.


I hate to admit it but I actually like bowling shoes, I know I stand alone in this but I find them so cute. Not the best pic either but you get the idea :)

Anyways my friend who was supposed to be quitting ww ended up coming to the meeting on Friday. I was happy. She is also in the gym with Cole so they were at the party as well. She said she hates eating around me in case I judge her. I don't. I eat stuff too, especially on the weekends.

I had pizza and some cake. I was kinda surprised that for a gym's party they didn't provide any water (only pop-which I gave up over 4 years ago). I kinda thought they would have some veggie trays and stuff. There I go assuming stuff-never assume, go prepared.

Today I went for my morning walk and it was raining and so cold. When I came home we had sort of a lazy day and then in the late afternoon we had some Subway and went to the Christmas Parade. I worked at Subway for 4 years and I could eat it every day-love it so much. Here's a pic of me and Cole freezing our butts off at the Christmas Parade-it was so cold we didn't even stick around for the big guy.For a couple of months now I've been seeing advertisements for these mugs from Tim Horton's, only $3.99 and obviously reusable. So pretty, so green. I went to all the Tim's here and couldn't get one. I thought I was destined to walk this earth without one and then today I finally found one~ Yah.

Cole likes that its the little things that make me happy and so do I. Anyways I have to go get prepared for another week. Hopefully we'll have a lazy weekend next week with my overtime, on the 12th we have 3 parties and one of them we are hosting. So busy-but fun~

Disappointment

My friend that just started going to ww like two months ago is quitting til after the new year. I'm really disappointed, especially since we go together and it was fun. She said with all the Xmas parties and stuff but she was doing so well the last few weeks. We were going to motivate each other.

What a total bummer. Luckily for me I started this journey by myself and made it a point to not need anyone to help me get to my goal. When I walk-its by myself, I blog by myself, and prepare my meals by myself. In the past when I needed a partner to motivate me, I failed.

This is not to say that I won't miss having her at my meetings, I will. It sucks too that in January I have to find a new meeting since I'll be working morning.

Well off to work I go to start another work week. Have a great week to all my bloggies.