Well if you read my last post you will know that I spent a lot of my vacation dealing with stress from my in-laws. It hasn't really stopped because my future mother-in-law keeps posting to facebook how nice the resort is and it seems intentional now.

Another stress I dealt with last week on vacation was the dentist. You see I hadn't gone to the dentist in like 11 years. The first few years it was because I didn't have insurance. After that I just kept getting more afraid.

The longer I stayed away the worst my imagination was getting away with me. Anytime I felt a little bit of sensitivity I imagined having to get my entire set of teeth removed. I was so worked up I didn't ever want to find out what exactly was going on.

So a couple of weeks ago I made both Cole & I appointments. The verdict.... I have two cavities. Not so bad. The lesson...... you can sometimes stress way too much about the unknown, its way better to face your fear and move on.

Besides all the stress I've been focused on I wanted to show you my wedding place cards that I made. My wedding colors are apple green and brown: Pretty? I absolutely loved how they came out. I'm so talented-haha. I went for a super long nice walk in the hailstones yesterday-super cold when I got back-jumped right into a hot shower-so nice.

The future is mine to make~

After working overtime Friday night-Saturday morning I spent the rest of the weekend catching up on some sleep. Today Cole & I went for a walk even though the sidewalks were slippery.

Just wanted to post a quick post to say that tomorrow I am starting my super motivated plan. I plan to make a huge effort to exercise every day in one form or another. The kind of exercise that breaks a sweat. The kind that lets you know you are doing something. I will post about the exercise. This is the year that I lose my weight and keep it off.

I can't keep making excuses and slacking off. My wedding is in 13 months. Its now or never people. I plan on buying my wedding dress in November - that gives me 9 months to lose the majority of my weight. I can do this, nobody can do it for me.

I WILL SUCCEED~

The time is flying.

Wow-hard to believe the weekend is gone already and I've got two shifts punched. Amazing how fast the time seems to be going.

I started thinking about that today and how quickly my wedding will be approaching. It is 13 months away. Walking home from work with the temperature being above -5 for the first time in a while got me in the mood for exercise.

I've been having a great week so far-this being the 2nd day-haha-and I've really stuck to a good food plan. Been eating lots of fresh veggies and fruit. I'm so grateful that the fruit we bought this week is especially delicious-so much easier-I just hate it when we buy a box of clementines only to have them taste yucky.

This coming weekend we are being offered some overtime and I was going to do it til I realized that Friday is the only real night Cole & I will get to celebrate Valentine's day and that is really important to us.

So many of my co-workers or ppl I know say they don't really do anything special for their spouse or vice versa. I can honestly say that Cole & I constantly show each other appreciation on a daily basis not just Valentine's day. Many ppl say oh just wait til you get married or have kids but I don't think either one of us would let the other get away with it. Whether its Cole scribbling me a little love note or me baking him his favorite treat we do these things often and we don't take them for granted.

Maybe it helps that we were friends first but I encourage anyone to do these things and to really see how fulfilling it can be to give.

Here are some pics of something Cole did for me last year. He made a trail for me to follow to the bathroom.

Hershey Kisses cause he really knows his woman.He had candles set up everywhere and a super hot bubble bath, just the way I like it.

My cat got fat.

Today was the first day I took off from exercising in 7 days. I know what you're thinking wow-why isn't she already small? Well the answer is simple-I only really got motivated a week ago. My weigh in is on Friday and I hope to have a good loss. I liken myself to a scared cat when it comes to my weight. It can go many ways. I have a good loss and feel so good about myself that I fall off the wagon, or I don't lose and get so frustrated I fall off the wagon. No seriously that has been my problem in the past, always looking for reasons to give up but now that my wedding on the horizon I can't fail again. Does anyone know where I can get a wedding dress with built in shorts in case my thighs are still rubbing together?