I'm feeling Bitter!

I rarely post twice in one day but I feel like I have so many separate thoughts in my head. On January 5th I start my day shift.

I'm really nervous. Maybe I'm resistant to change but I've worked nights for over 4 years now with Cole. Whenever we tell anyone that I got days and he is still on nights they act like we are planning a funeral.

I guess I'm feeling really anxious about meeting new people, with a company our size close friendships rarely happen at the workplace. I'm used to not having to deal with anyone-I put on my ipod and away I go but with this shift change I will have to make some phone calls.

I'm also thinking about how unhappy I am to be away from my family all the time. I should be grateful that I got to see everyone at Christmas but it was way too short and I'm resentful to my job for not letting us have time off and genuinely just have a depressed feeling about the whole situation.

We actually have to work tonight to make up for the shift change we were given and it just doesn't make sense. There is a woman who sits next to me and she gets a doctors note at least once a week and twice this week to get off work, but someone with perfect attendance can't get an extra day off to leave the Country, hello my name is bitter. haha.

Anyways I figure now I will post a few pics of Christmas to cheer me up.

My amazing sister-in-law Mary with my nephew Ben

Here I am with BenThis nerd is my brother DarrenHere is Cole with BenHere is Me & Gabby DoodlingHere I am with Mom shopping at the outlet stores. I wish I would have gotten some pics of me & Mary or me & Darren-I don't know why I never think about it at the time-strange.

Hauling butt-my butt~

Wow-I can't get over how long this week has been. I'm going to work on Friday to get some overtime pay for Christmas. I'm gonna see how I do and maybe do it the next couple of weeks so I'll have lots of cash for the outlet stores.

I just got back from my morning walk and I'm really proud of myself. I've been pushing myself to go for longer walks and to walk faster. In all my years of dieting I've never pushed myself in an athletic way.

I know that lots of people don't like The Biggest Loser because its dramatic weight loss and sort of unrealistic to regular people but I have to admit I'm addicted. I love watching the transformations and I usually pic someone who was my weight in the beginning and love seeing what they look like smaller.

Watching the show and reading different blogs has got me motivated for the future. Its really making me plan some goals. I'd love to run a 5k, go hiking, etc. These things couldn't have been further from my mind before but now they are starting to seem attainable.

One definite benefit to exercise is that I've never felt better, I'm actually getting up an hour or more before my alarm and I'm actually rested. I'm looking forward to my weigh in tomorrow-hopefully it'll show all the work I did this week.