Waiting to get out~

This past weekend we didn't do too much. We did go to get some more fish for our tank. Pepper really enjoys watching the fish. Cole will make a great dad someday just look at him with Pepper-haha.
On Sunday afternoon I attempted to make brown bread-it didn't turn out quite as planned. A little uncooked in the middle. It hasn't stopped Cole from eating it-haha-he said he still really loves it. I also made brownies cause I'm a glutton for punishment. I ate some with my flex points but I may have gone over. Boo~ After posting yesterday about having to get my exercise on track I decided today to take some pics to prove to you all that I'm totally serious. I decided to wear my pajama top so I would get a happy feeling from that at least.

I watched How its made while on the treadmill. I love that show.

Warning-this isn't pretty. While I do sweat sometimes while working out I usually don't push myself to the max. I did today. The reflection didn't work well with my camera but I did 45mins. For me that is amazing. My heart rate ranged from 132-151. I did 3.0 - 3.8. In the 45 mins I did just a tad over 3 miles. I burned 354 calories.

I can really feel it in my legs right now. I'm really, really proud of myself. It felt really amazing to stick to a goal I set out for myself. One day at a time. By November I can have my pick of wedding dresses.

Today I heard a quote that Michelangelo said : "Every block of stone has a statue inside it and its the task of the sculptor to discover it."

It is my job through diet and exercise to peel away my layers and become who I want to be.

Jammie Day~

It feels so weird to be up by myself in the middle of the day. I have a small headache and I believe it may be from too much sleep and the sun, haha.

I don't seem to know what to do with myself. I did my workout on the treadmill this morning-I did a interval walk-jog workout and it felt great to get back at it. I weighed myself on the scales there and if they are right I may have gained 3 pds-boo. I think I'm going to start going to the meetings on Thursday night so I'll find out for sure then.

I ate breakfast with Cole before he went to bed, did dishes, packed lunches, washed towels, had a shower. I dug out all my things to scrapbook so I'm going to do that after my post. I think I'm going to straighten my hair later too so that when I shower before work I'll use a shower cap since I have to be to work for 5am.

Tomorrow after work I'm going to lunch with my friend Kim to celebrate her birthday. I know most days won't be as quiet as today so I should be enjoying it. I can't believe how much I have changed. I used to love spending time alone.

As promised I have some pics :

The cookbook I asked for so excited to dig in.A pic of Cole & I from the weekend.

Last night I made a Chocolate Chip Cheesecake to surprise Cole-he loved it.My Awesome new Sneakers that Mom got me for Christmas. I had planned to buy them for myself and when I opened them I couldn't believe it cause she didn't know what ones I wanted but picked out the same ones-Moms know best. They look so cute with jeans.And last but not least my uniform for today. God I love Jammie's and I'm not afraid to say it-I love, love, love Jammie's.

Good Intentions-Nearest Window.

Friday night I was hoping to do the usual overtime but it wasn't offered. This proved crappy for me. You see, Cole had already committed his self to watching his brother and had to sleep out there overnight.

I was already under the weather from womanly issues and then I was left to my own devices. Being alone for me can be a problem.

I didn't eat bad Friday night. I had a nice bath, got more things prepped for Adam's party, and really enjoyed my time alone. Too much. I couldn't sleep. I finally got to sleep around 4:30 and and woke up @ 7am-blurgggg.

I was feeling anxious cause I had so many loose ends to attend to for the party so I got up and started running errands. I got everything I needed, got some Subway and headed home.

I ate my Subway, finished my baking, tidied up a bit, and got the biggest headache I've had in years. I think I had waited too long to eat and with so little sleep it was a deadly combo.

Luckily for me Cole was on his way home and I could grab a nap. I slept longer than I meant too but I so needed it. So long, in fact, that I skipped supper. So at the party I had a few sandwich triangles and way more sweets than I should have. Only a little veggies.

Now I am finding it hard to get re-motivated for the week as I am having major cramps and I am craving sugar. I just finished a peanut butter ball.

I have to use this as a major lesson. I am not a person who can go without sleep or miss meals. This always leads to headaches and I know this. I have to force myself to take the time out for me. I don't want to end up feeling crappy during my only time this year with my family.

Tomorrow I'm going to kill it on the treadmill and today I'm weaning myself off of sugar. It really is amazing how fast you can get hooked again.

Treadmills and nagging~

I was reading a great blog last night What a slurge and she discussed not letting her co-workers know she was dieting.

I have such strong opinions on this topic I decided to discuss it right here. Since I have been dieting for over half my life I have tried every approach known to woman.

The secret diet, telling everyone, telling a few, etc. I haven't really struck a good balance when it comes to this. I seem to always tell a person I always wish I hadn't.

In the present tense it is a co-worker. I had a momentary lapse in judgement a while ago when she told me she struggled with dieting and told her I joined Weight Watchers.

I didn't tell her this for any particular reason I think I felt she needed to know that someone else was in the same boat. Ever since it feels like she is really struggling with dieting and she is constantly telling me about going to the gym, what she eats, etc.

I don't want to seem uncaring or cold hearted, and I certainly don't want anyone to think I judge them for what they eat-I am the last one who could judge believe me, but I also don't want my eating habits brought up on a daily basis. She mentions these things around others and it just makes me uncomfortable.

Not to mention I've lost 25 pds and she says so how much have you lost so far and I'll tell her and she doesn't say yeah I can tell or you look good or anything. If only I could turn back the clock.

In other news-I've given up walking outside. I have trackers but my legs are still too afraid to fall and it took me forever to do my walk yesterday. It really sucks because from mine and Cole's walk on Sunday morning in the snow my legs are still sore so it really makes for a good workout.

I decided to use the treadmill provided in my apartment building. I so depise a treadmill but at least it has a tv in there.

The room is surrounded in mirrors so I can stare at my ass while working out-haha-should help with portion control.

I'm doing a Christmas Gift Card Exchange on the Weight Watcher Website and I've gotten three so far. One had 4 awesome recipes with the points and everything already tallied and in another card I got a string with 1 inch braided and a little saying.

It says : "What does an inch mean? Here are a few lengths of thread-Just one braided inch. It may look quite small but when you find yourself in a pinch consider the inches you've lost (But how gaining them is a cinch!) When the going gets tough look on this thread and know you will get there-inch by inch.

This is so cute and clever-I have mine on my wrist right now and may replace it with a black one-goes with more-haha. I thought it was so neat.

I so love getting mail :)

Seasonal Issues.

This coming weekend I'm doing overtime on Friday night. Then on Saturday I plan to make a few recipes from my new Weight Watcher recipe books. A few new recipes for the winter are just what I need.

This time of year has proven to be a challenge for me already. December came is with 0 degree temperatures and I've already found myself more reluctant for my walks. Yesterday I bundled a big scarf around my face and it helped. (I don't really care what I look like on these walks, haha)

I need to figure out some home workouts that burn enough calories so that I don't feel guilty forgoing my walk. I so hate the treadmill so that might keep me motivated to keep them outside.

Its so amazing that in a few short months how much blogging has impacted my life. I can't believe the amazing bloggers out there and how much they actually care about me. Thanks so much everyone who reads, and comments to my blog.

Next weekend we are attending three holiday parties. The first one is Cole's entire family meeting for their annual Christmas Party. The second is one we are hosting for his brother Adam's 30th birthday party and the third is my friends Christmas Party. I'm going to do some baking for them and for the one we are hosting there is going to be veggies and healthy options :)

This time of year can be so frighting but I am making a promise to myself to not forgo my exercise, no matter what else happens. Do any of my fellow bloggers have any strategies they are planning?