Weight Loss and a cake~

The detox is over. YAH! I weighed in and lost another pound. I was both happy and sad at the same time. I was happy because all week I could hardly bring myself to eat since all the food was so gross to me by then and I didn't feel like I was going to lose anything. Along the same line I was sad that I went all week eating hardly anything I liked, exercising and only losing 1 pound. My pic of the scale is getting worse because you can't see the 200 and the 2 at the same time. Guess I'll just have to go into the 190's to make it easier-haha. So hard to believe I'm getting so close to Onederland. Its scary though because I don't want to get my hopes up and start messing up this roll I've been on.

The gym is still awesome and I can't wait to get there today @ 4:30. What a change it is to actually enjoy exercise. I don't feel really big and heavy doing aerobics either-its so strange. You would think it would be one of the hardest exercises being overweight but I can keep up so I probably sell myself short and I probably can do a lot of other exercises too.

Kelly is now in Poland for her operation. She left on Friday and her operation is tomorrow. This past Tuesday I made her and Rodney this cake:
Its a four layer Walnut, Praline Cake with Homemade Cream Cheese Frosting with Chocolate Fudge Frosting in between the layers. Kelly & Rodney both have the biggest sweet tooth you could imagine-even worse than mine. Kelly called me 4 times on Tuesday night to talk about how much they loved it and her mom emailed me too. haha. I love feeding people who love food.

All weekend I watched Cupcake Wars and Unwrapped. It made me think more and more about someday opening a bakery. Maybe a Cupcake Bakery. Maybe someday when my financial situation is finally cleaned up.

Anyways I should be off. Today is the day I get to have coffee for the first time in 21 days. Sandra and I are having Subway for lunch too and then its back to Weight Watchers for me. 9 pounds in 3 weeks is great for me but if I do end up doing this detox again before the wedding I'm pretty sure I'll only do it for 2 weeks.

Good Intentions-Nearest Window.

Friday night I was hoping to do the usual overtime but it wasn't offered. This proved crappy for me. You see, Cole had already committed his self to watching his brother and had to sleep out there overnight.

I was already under the weather from womanly issues and then I was left to my own devices. Being alone for me can be a problem.

I didn't eat bad Friday night. I had a nice bath, got more things prepped for Adam's party, and really enjoyed my time alone. Too much. I couldn't sleep. I finally got to sleep around 4:30 and and woke up @ 7am-blurgggg.

I was feeling anxious cause I had so many loose ends to attend to for the party so I got up and started running errands. I got everything I needed, got some Subway and headed home.

I ate my Subway, finished my baking, tidied up a bit, and got the biggest headache I've had in years. I think I had waited too long to eat and with so little sleep it was a deadly combo.

Luckily for me Cole was on his way home and I could grab a nap. I slept longer than I meant too but I so needed it. So long, in fact, that I skipped supper. So at the party I had a few sandwich triangles and way more sweets than I should have. Only a little veggies.

Now I am finding it hard to get re-motivated for the week as I am having major cramps and I am craving sugar. I just finished a peanut butter ball.

I have to use this as a major lesson. I am not a person who can go without sleep or miss meals. This always leads to headaches and I know this. I have to force myself to take the time out for me. I don't want to end up feeling crappy during my only time this year with my family.

Tomorrow I'm going to kill it on the treadmill and today I'm weaning myself off of sugar. It really is amazing how fast you can get hooked again.