Sunday, June 20, 2010
This past weekend was at first very stressful but it ended happily. We went in for overtime on Friday night to make some extra cash for when my family come. I usually have a nap on Friday but I was so nervous about visiting the in-laws that I couldn't calm down enough to sleep.
So I got off overtime at 3am on Sat and we slept about 4 hrs. We drove out to Cole's parents place and they were tense and stuff but we stayed 1 1/2 hrs. The conversation was just about everything going on in the family, etc. Then we left and we were almost home when I realised I forgot my purse there, bummer.
So we went to Kelly & Rodney's swimming and had a great time and then went out for Chinese with my friend Kim, this weekend we forgot out camera home, we are very forgetful.
We got home like 8pm and Cole's parents didn't even call to say my purse was there, he called to ask them if they would be coming in the next few days as they live 45 mins out of the city and she said I was just about to email you. They are really strange acting like they can't call or anything and then she wrote on Cole's facebook that she appreciated the visit. I told him that I have a feeling that she probably bad-mouthed me so much that she doesn't want to write on my wall because her friends will see it.
So there it is we tried, yet again, we will have to see how they act now-I have a feeling it will be same ole, same ole.
I don't know how I'm going to make it through this week waiting for mom to arrive, I'm too excited!!!
Thanks everyone for the comments on my last post-I never realised how many bowel experts I had right at my fingertips-I took some of your advice and things are getting a lot better.
Friday, June 18, 2010
most of my food seems to be still with me. I've eaten lots of fiber, veggies, drank tons of water but nothing is happening. This has always been a problem for me but now more than ever.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Here is a pic of mom and myself in New Hampshire a couple of years ago-I have lost around 40lbs since that pic so that makes me feel good.
Speaking of being tired I just feel really tired with my "trying to lose weight" life. Its been 17 years and while I now feel this is more of a lifestyle change its still a hard thing to change in my mind.
I look around my office and I see woman of all sizes eating food with seemingly not thought. Woman coming back from the local coffee joint with muffins, donuts, whatever and I can honestly say that though in the past I may have eaten those things-it was always a huge thought of some sort and more than likely a negative one.
That's not to say that I wish I could eat like that all the time because, of course, I still want to be healthy but it would be nice not to have this voice over in my head every time I eat a bit.
Most of the blogs I am following regularly seem to have their act so together. Do any of you just feel tired like me?
Monday, June 14, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
I like to come home from work and get in my workout in right away but I've been feeling like I had a dip in my blood sugar or something and had to stop twice-this is even after eating something before leaving work-really strange.
I'm still feeling tons of stress from this fight with the in-laws. They have made no contact other than her dropping in for 15 mins on Cole's birthday but now she is writing things on facebook again that we know are digs at us. Cole is seriously considering calling them and telling them he is done with the whole situation and he doesn't want anything to do with them.
I'm really torn because we have always been close to them and for one fight to explode like this is truly amazing. I guess I'm just in shock or something. I've never been one to enjoy conflict of any kind and this is tearing up my insides, just feel really queasy right now.
I told Cole that I always got the impression that they could cut people off really easily (like if they had disagreements with friends) but I never imagined it would be us, especially Cole. I just can't imagine how he would feel if they weren't at the wedding.
That is something else I am dealing with right now. We are pretty sure we are changing our travel agent. We didn't have anything major planned with the one we talked too yet but I sorta thought we would not really shop around. She got married in Dominican last year so I thought how perfect she can tell me a lot. To be honest, she hasn't.
We picked our first resort (that the parents stole) because of how classy it seemed and from the pics we were right. So anyways we settled on another one and she just came back this week with a high quote and said you can leave a deposit to hold it, no word about the wedding package, etc, anything, pertaining to what is included, etc. She also mentioned two other resorts that are nothing like what we want. I've asked her repeated questions about anything about her wedding that could help me, etc and got nothing.
So we sent our info to my cousin's best friend who's been a travel agent for close to 20 years and she seems really eager already. She told me our choice of resort was beautiful and they have awesome food. She wanted to know why we chose it and if we were open to others. I like that she seems to care what we want.
One good thing to come out of this week is that Cole surprised me with a new pair of workout pants. I had been using these old pair of yoga pants I got from old navy and they were too long so if I tried to run I would have to haul them up.
Its so strange but my dress pants I wear all the time our really baggy now so that I actually feel better in my workout clothes, haha. I'm already quite pleased with my rear view, its my stomach, inner thighs and my arms that need the most work now-any suggestions on the workouts you like the best are greatly appreciated!
Both Cole & I are going in for overtime tomorrow night so that makes it easier (yes, misery does love company) My friend Sandra from work is really into flyball (a sport for dogs) and they are having a tournament this weekend. I said I would drop down and they are having a bake sale so I made some choc chip cookie bars for her to make extra money.
Kelly emailed that they have the pool in this week so if its nice on Sat we will probably head over there for a couple of hours.
What type of things do you all do to get out of a funk? I so hate being down especially when it seems there is nothing I can do.
Friday, June 4, 2010
Have a great weekend everyone~
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
On Sunday morning's Cole & I usually go for a walk so this time I surprised him and told him I wanted to run for 1 min and walk for 3. And I did it for around 30 mins then we walked. My legs still feel sore-haha.