Monday, March 29, 2010
I think all the stress is actually manifesting into itself and affecting my health. Cole & I still haven't spoken to his parents-The reason is in this post they got back from their trip on Friday. The whole week on facebook she kept posting about how beautiful the place was, etc.
It really hurt us that she was mentioning the place seeing how this was the whole reason for the fight. When Cole said why we didn't want them to go there they said they wouldn't mention it or show us any pictures. Then yesterday she posted like 200 pics of the place-including a pic of her and the hubby under the wedding gazebo-I seriously think there may be something wrong with the woman.
Cole was sleeping while she was posting them and I kept feeling worse and worse looking at them on facebook-for some sick reason I couldn't stop. By the time Cole got up I had the worst pains in my stomach. He is so worried that this is affecting me and my weight loss. He says with all my efforts it would kill him that stress kept me from getting where I want to be.
Cole deleted his mother from facebook. I don't know how I feel about it cause I know that I would do the same thing if mom did this to me. I said I would delete her too for a sign of solidarity but he wanted me to keep her on mine so she would know that he is making the statement-he is the one who is mad and I'm not just getting him to go along with it. They are the kind of people who really love you til they hate you.
I woke up for work this morning and my stomach felt really bad, like really bad gas and it was going around to my bad and everything. I called in sick and tried to sleep but I couldn't. When Cole got back he was really nervous cause I was wearing a bunch of layers and was under blankets but I was shivering. We thought maybe it might have something to do with the gallbladder. I said if I didn't feel better later I would let him take me to the hosp. He ran me a hot bath to get rid of my chill and he even warmed my blanket in the dryer-sweet or what?
I finally fell asleep for a couple of hours and feel abit better but the pain is still there in my back-its so strange. I think I'm letting the fight work me up really bad. I'm going to stop looking at her pics and focus on us-I can't really change anything going on with them but I can change me.
Friday, March 26, 2010
The good thing is that I've been doing good with the metabolism the last couple of days so next week should be a great weigh in :)
Not much new to report-still pissed at the in-laws~
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Another stress I dealt with last week on vacation was the dentist. You see I hadn't gone to the dentist in like 11 years. The first few years it was because I didn't have insurance. After that I just kept getting more afraid.
The longer I stayed away the worst my imagination was getting away with me. Anytime I felt a little bit of sensitivity I imagined having to get my entire set of teeth removed. I was so worked up I didn't ever want to find out what exactly was going on.
So a couple of weeks ago I made both Cole & I appointments. The verdict.... I have two cavities. Not so bad. The lesson...... you can sometimes stress way too much about the unknown, its way better to face your fear and move on.
Besides all the stress I've been focused on I wanted to show you my wedding place cards that I made. My wedding colors are apple green and brown: Pretty? I absolutely loved how they came out. I'm so talented-haha. I went for a super long nice walk in the hailstones yesterday-super cold when I got back-jumped right into a hot shower-so nice.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Friday, March 12, 2010
This makes all the walking, counting, etc worth it for sure. I was so extremely happy when I saw I blasted into the 210's like nobodies business.
2 more pds til I reach 30 pds lost. This week will be challenging since we are on vacation but I'm gonna try to keep it in the lines-haha.
We are having Kelly & Rodney over for Turkey dinner on Sat evening and then my birthday is on Monday so those twos days will be rough but I plan on exercising and reading blogs and eating good the rest of the week!
I'm so happy to finally see results~
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
Today during work two friends and I walked on our two 15 min breaks around the building, I walked home, went for an hour long walk and did 15 mins on the exercise ball.
I made up a schedule where just about everyday I will walk for at least 30 min and one day I will do 15 min on the ball and the next will be 15 min on arms.
I made a commitment to myself to also take better care of my skin. I've started exfoliating twice a week and applying lotion after my showers. Is there anything like this that you plan on committing too?
Friday, March 5, 2010
Monday, March 1, 2010
On Saturday we spent the morning picking out a resort for our wedding next March. I cannot wait - it is so beautiful. We ran down and spoke to a travel agent briefly and picked up some travel books.
I made Cole two loaves of Cinnamon Raisin Swirl bread:
Cole's parents came to visit so one loaf quickly disappeared :) On Sunday I watched the Canada vs USA Hockey game. If that doesn't get the heart beating nothing will.
Looking at the resorts online really got me motivated to work out too. I just got off the treadmill a little bit ago. The scale says I'm down 1 pd but I guess I will have to wait and see on Thursday. Have to get Cole to put some air in my exercise ball so I can do some ab exercises tomorrow after the treadmill.
Here's a pick of my cat checking out my elephant statue:
Isn't she cute?