Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Holiday Recap~

Wow-I cannot believe it has been an entire week since I posted. I missed blogging and reading blogs so much while I was travelling. I honestly feel like I didn't have time for much over the holidays.

We had all kinds of worries on the beginning of our trip about the weather but thankfully it cooperated and we made it to New Hampshire safely. We arrived and had last minute gifts we had to get.

We finally made it to Mom's house with a full vehicle to unload and I couldn't wait to see my niece and nephew-they warmed to us immediately and Mary, Gabby and I built a snowman.

Me and Cole had tons of gifts to wrap since you can't wrap the one's you are taking thru the border so we would go to the room to wrap a bit and then spend time with the family, etc. We were so tired from working overnight and the big trip that Cole slept from 9 on and I fell asleep at around midnight.

Christmas day is a blur of opening presents, cooking, etc. So much fun. I'm pretty proud of myself for not over-eating too bad over the holidays. I didn't get in my proper fruits, veggies, etc but I didn't ever feel completely stuffed either so I guess I can't complain.

The rest of the holidays went by way too quick. I cried so hard when my brothers family left. It is so hard to be away. My niece is amazing and my nephew is the happiest baby ever.

My meeting is closed again for the holiday so hopefully by next week I'll do pretty good. Cole is at the grocery store right now getting us some fruits & veggies.

Can't wait to read some blogs tomorrow to see how everyone is. Missed my blog family.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Happy Holidays~

This has been a super busy week. Those of you who read my blog know that I love downtime and hate being busy. It doesn't become me, haha.

Had overtime on the weekend and then basically had to catch up on sleep after that. Did some running around for some Christmas gifts that I hadn't purchased online, did some more baking (nut free) to bring to Mom's.

This week hasn't been bad food wise for me. I've been pretty much staying on plan (so far) as I know I'll be eating more once I get to the states. I haven't gotten in my exercise but I'm hoping with the extra running around it'll balance out? Anyone? haha.

We still have more things to pick up and we're getting tired. This year I did like about 50% of my shopping online and next year I'm shooting for 80-90%. It is so easy and hassle free. So much more options and I found it cheaper. It also helps that we always have the money up front so we don't get billed later-pay the credit card off immediately and nobody gets hurt-haha.

I called Mom's last night and she was cuddling on the couch with my niece Gabby watching a movie-I was so jealous-I so can't wait to get there.

I've been trying to read some blogs and will keep trying during the holidays-keep going people and don't get too angry with yourself if you slip, pick yourself up and dust yourself off.

Friday, December 18, 2009

A Weigh in and Brownie Recipe

I lost another pound-woo hoo. I couldn't believe it. I was just praying to at least stay the same since I began the week on a bad note and I exceeded my expectations.

Today was probably my last weigh in at my Weight Watcher meeting since I'm going to the day shift in the new year. I was really sad cause I love my leader Ann so much and the group is pretty good. I hope I can find an evening meeting that I love too.

I brought in some recipes for my group and I even made one and brought it in.
Triple Chocolate Brownie Thins :

Serves 12 1 Wedge = 2pts Bake 15 Minutes

1oz unsweetened Chocolate, chopped
2tbsp butter
3tbsp unsweetened dutch-process cocoa
1/2 cup sugar
1 large egg
1/2 tsp vanilla
1/3 cup all purpose flour
1/8 tsp baking powder
1/8 tsp salt
1/4 cup + 2tbsp semisweet chocolate chips

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Line a 9-in round baking pan with foil allowing excess foil to extend over the rim of pan by 2 inches. Lightly spray with non-stick spray. Combine the unsweetened chocolate and butter in medium microwavable bowl. Microwave on high 1 min, then whisk in the cocoa until blended. Whisk in the sugar, egg, and vanilla. Add the flour, baking powder and salt; stir just until blended. Stir in 1/4 cup of the choc chips. Scrape batter into prepared pan, spreading to cover bottom of pan. Sprinkle with remaining chips. Bake until brownies are firm along the edges and a toothpick inserted into centre comes out with moist crumbs clinging, 12-14 minutes. Let cool completely in pan on a wire rack. Remove the brownies from pan using foil as handles. Cut into 12 wedges.

They are so good-nobody could get over at my meeting how great they were and Cole loved them too.
I had to add this pic of Pepper-she is too cute :)

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Stressing out~

This week has been a stressful one. I don't know what is up but I'm really feeling anxious all the time. Usually the feeling of butterflies in your stomach can be fun but not when its in a bad way.

I'm feeling stress for many reasons:

1) My job usually gives us an extra day off with pay during the holidays and they don't know if they are doing it this year.

2) We don't get off work until 6:30am on Christmas Eve and are driving to New Hampshire (5 1/2- 6 1/2 hrs) and they don't think we can go into work a couple of hours earlier to help us out.

3) This is Cole's first Christmas away from home and I'm getting a bit of quilt from the in-laws

4) I want this to be an amazing Christmas for Cole

5) My niece is allergic to nuts and I'm stressed about what I can make, eat, etc.

Whew that felt good to unload, haha. I've managed to eat good the rest of the week and got on the treadmill a few times. I think it helped me get out some aggressions.

One really bright spot to my week has been the Christmas Card Exchange I am in on the Weight Watcher forums. I so love going to the mailbox everynight before work and getting nice cards. Usually with something inside like recipes or inspirational quotes.
In the cards I sent I cut out inspirational quotes from my Woman's World Magazines with Scrapbook Scissors. Nice quotes that can apply to weight loss.

In the magazine for this week they had two nail applications that I really want to try in the next week. One was CandyCane effect:

The other was like a french manicure but in red. So pretty.

Another bright spot is that Cole took a picture of me that I really like-haha-vain or what? Being with a camera addict can have its perks afterall :)

Monday, December 14, 2009

Good Intentions-Nearest Window.

Friday night I was hoping to do the usual overtime but it wasn't offered. This proved crappy for me. You see, Cole had already committed his self to watching his brother and had to sleep out there overnight.

I was already under the weather from womanly issues and then I was left to my own devices. Being alone for me can be a problem.

I didn't eat bad Friday night. I had a nice bath, got more things prepped for Adam's party, and really enjoyed my time alone. Too much. I couldn't sleep. I finally got to sleep around 4:30 and and woke up @ 7am-blurgggg.

I was feeling anxious cause I had so many loose ends to attend to for the party so I got up and started running errands. I got everything I needed, got some Subway and headed home.

I ate my Subway, finished my baking, tidied up a bit, and got the biggest headache I've had in years. I think I had waited too long to eat and with so little sleep it was a deadly combo.

Luckily for me Cole was on his way home and I could grab a nap. I slept longer than I meant too but I so needed it. So long, in fact, that I skipped supper. So at the party I had a few sandwich triangles and way more sweets than I should have. Only a little veggies.

Now I am finding it hard to get re-motivated for the week as I am having major cramps and I am craving sugar. I just finished a peanut butter ball.

I have to use this as a major lesson. I am not a person who can go without sleep or miss meals. This always leads to headaches and I know this. I have to force myself to take the time out for me. I don't want to end up feeling crappy during my only time this year with my family.

Tomorrow I'm going to kill it on the treadmill and today I'm weaning myself off of sugar. It really is amazing how fast you can get hooked again.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Big Fat Lies & Irritations

I got weighed in Today-technically yesterday by the time but who's keeping track? I stayed the same. I can honestly say that. Still 220.6 on the nose.

Its so strange but in the past I have lied about how I did. Not on my blog but to Cole, family and friends. I would weigh in and lose .6 and I'd say I lost 1 pd. I'd gain .6 and I'd say I stayed the same. Either they are all bad with math or they are on to my game.

I can't really explain why I did this but I'm trying to change it. Even now my first instinct is to bump up the number but I nip it in the bud.

I've lied to myself plenty in the past before too. The diet starts Monday, just one cookie, etc and its gotten me nowhere quick.

I'm a person that hardly ever gets irritated but the smallest thing has irritated me for a bit and it was finally resolved today. I'm a bit embarrassed that I even cared but I did. See if it would bother you too - Here's the story :

I have been with Weight Watchers on and off for about a year and I re-membered yet again in August. So they still went by my starting weight. Somewhere along the way someone made a mistake with the starting number 245.6 and put down 245. So every time I would weigh in I would be short this .6 of a pd.

At first, like any normal human being, it didn't bother me. Then I hit my 15pd goal and they registered it as 14.4. And then I hit 20 pds and they registered it as 19.4 and I said something, and they adjusted it wrong to show 19.8-uhhh.

I bit my tongue until I hit 25pds and she registered it at 24.8-I said 245.6-220.6 is 25pds and she said oh well you can still get the award at the meeting I won't tell anyone-like I was getting away with something-but I wasn't I did this. I earned this. I bit my tongue-accepted my award and went home.

Before my meeting yesterday I brought it up, I am relentless, and one of the workers got out a calculator and went over each of my ups and downs to figure out the mistake. I don't care when the mistake was made, who made it, I just want ppl to acknowledge that 245.6-220.6=25pds.

She finally said okay I will go by your weight and we'll figure out the problem later. Don't get me wrong I love all the workers and they were more than nice and I am never rude about it but hello people-whats a girl got to do to get some scale love?

Am I completely alone? Would anyone else even have bothered with something so trivial? Do I get the crickets?

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Soooooo Cold~

The weather here is so sick. I always love the idea of winter but when it shows up I'm always reminded that I don't really like it.

One thing I am loving is my Christmas Card Exchange, so much fun. Yesterday I received a nice card with stickers, a letter about the giver with a before/after pic and a little card:

So cute, so creative. I'll have to keep all these things on hand over the holidays for a little motivation when mine slips.

I started watching The Biggest Loser last night but had to go to work. I haven't read any blogs about it yet but I couldn't believe that Rebecca's dyed her hair-I did not like it. Watching that show really shows how sometimes people can go too far with it. Some of the women especially looked under weight and that is just as unflattering in my opinion.

I bought Jen's E-Cookbook from Priorfatgirl and its awesome. I printed it but don't have a colored printer :( oh well-it is so nicely done. Can't wait to make something.
Well I am off to yet again prepare more for Adam's party on Saturday. Cole has been pigging out all week on my treats-I'm getting scared I won't have enough-haha.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Treadmills and nagging~

I was reading a great blog last night What a slurge and she discussed not letting her co-workers know she was dieting.

I have such strong opinions on this topic I decided to discuss it right here. Since I have been dieting for over half my life I have tried every approach known to woman.
The secret diet, telling everyone, telling a few, etc. I haven't really struck a good balance when it comes to this. I seem to always tell a person I always wish I hadn't.

In the present tense it is a co-worker. I had a momentary lapse in judgement a while ago when she told me she struggled with dieting and told her I joined Weight Watchers.

I didn't tell her this for any particular reason I think I felt she needed to know that someone else was in the same boat. Ever since it feels like she is really struggling with dieting and she is constantly telling me about going to the gym, what she eats, etc.

I don't want to seem uncaring or cold hearted, and I certainly don't want anyone to think I judge them for what they eat-I am the last one who could judge believe me, but I also don't want my eating habits brought up on a daily basis. She mentions these things around others and it just makes me uncomfortable.

Not to mention I've lost 25 pds and she says so how much have you lost so far and I'll tell her and she doesn't say yeah I can tell or you look good or anything. If only I could turn back the clock.

In other news-I've given up walking outside. I have trackers but my legs are still too afraid to fall and it took me forever to do my walk yesterday. It really sucks because from mine and Cole's walk on Sunday morning in the snow my legs are still sore so it really makes for a good workout.

I decided to use the treadmill provided in my apartment building. I so depise a treadmill but at least it has a tv in there.
The room is surrounded in mirrors so I can stare at my ass while working out-haha-should help with portion control.
I'm doing a Christmas Gift Card Exchange on the Weight Watcher Website and I've gotten three so far. One had 4 awesome recipes with the points and everything already tallied and in another card I got a string with 1 inch braided and a little saying.

It says : "What does an inch mean? Here are a few lengths of thread-Just one braided inch. It may look quite small but when you find yourself in a pinch consider the inches you've lost (But how gaining them is a cinch!) When the going gets tough look on this thread and know you will get there-inch by inch.

This is so cute and clever-I have mine on my wrist right now and may replace it with a black one-goes with more-haha. I thought it was so neat.

I so love getting mail :)

Monday, December 7, 2009

The Weekend~

This weekend went by in a blur. Working overtime doesn't seem too bad while I'm doing it but it sure doesn't leave for much downtime or rest.

While I was at work on Friday night Cole got a lot of our housework done and decided to try his hand at baking and choose to do Ginger Molasses Cookies. They are really good.

I had plans with my friend Kim for breakfast and a little shopping so I decided to forgo my usual nap after work.

We got a few things done and with my online shopping I think I way ahead of the game. I did some Christmas baking myself since we are having Adam's party next weekend. Still have more to do but here's what I made so far.

Thumbprints, Peanut Butter & Jar Crumble Cookies, and Chocolate Chip Cookies. I'm proud to say that the baked Chocolate Chip Cookies went into the freezer so fast I didn't even get a pic-they are a weakness-not to say I didn't try a couple-lol~
That night Cole and I got an appetizer tray from M&M Meats and enjoyed some Christmas movies with our munchies and had on all the Christmas Decorations. I wish I could do this every single weekend-its the best.

On Sunday morning we headed out for our walk and man it was freezing-lots of snow had fallen during the night.
Here I am in three layers of clothing and my snow trackers on~

This was at 5:30 in the morning and people usually drive by us like were nuts.

Judging from this pic we probably are-this is the point where I'm thinking why did we bring the camera? So cold.
Had to move around to get warm~

Cole managed to warm my heart by making me a heart in the snow :)

During the walk I got so hungry and thirsty.

Cole did too~
This is right before we went to get coffee-so hot-so nice.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Progress pics.

Well I thought I would do some progress pics to help keep me motivated with my weight loss journey. I am pleased with the results so far. The left is me @ 245.6 and the right is me @220.6!

I can't believe I did my before pics in pajamas-sounds like me-haha. So this is what losing 25 pds looks like. Cole said I seem to have better posture so that is awesome~

I so loathe my double chin I cannot even begin to tell you how much-I hope to lose some by my next progress pics :)

Friday, December 4, 2009

25pd award and 10%

Can you say excited? Today I went to my meeting and I lost 2.6pds. I got my 25lbs award and my 10%. You won't be able to wipe this smile off for a week-haha. It feels so good and so deserved, hell I sweat for this loss-no pain-no gain.

My fellow meeting members are so supportive and its going to be hard to change meetings in January, hopefully I'll figure a way to pop in from time to time.

Its so funny but since today I got my 25pd award and 10% all at the same time I was sort of worried that now everyone knows how much I weigh. Isn't that always the way you get something awesome and immediately try to ruin it for yourself.

I don't even care. This is me-I'm owning this, every step of the way. Its crazy that this has seemed like the hardest week for me but having some great bloggers post words of encouragement to me really proved helpful.

When I stepped on the scale and lost 2.6 I immediately felt like the weight came off, my pants felt lighter. Any of you experience that? So funny but so awesome.

I'm going in for overtime tonight so Cole is the house husband for today-packing lunches, making supper and doing the chores so tomorrow we can both enjoy some much needed downtime. We plan on watching some Christmas movies with the tree and lights on. So nice.

Have a great weekend-blogs are scarce on the weekend but I'll be looking forward to reading some :)

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Seasonal Issues.

This coming weekend I'm doing overtime on Friday night. Then on Saturday I plan to make a few recipes from my new Weight Watcher recipe books. A few new recipes for the winter are just what I need.

This time of year has proven to be a challenge for me already. December came is with 0 degree temperatures and I've already found myself more reluctant for my walks. Yesterday I bundled a big scarf around my face and it helped. (I don't really care what I look like on these walks, haha)

I need to figure out some home workouts that burn enough calories so that I don't feel guilty forgoing my walk. I so hate the treadmill so that might keep me motivated to keep them outside.

Its so amazing that in a few short months how much blogging has impacted my life. I can't believe the amazing bloggers out there and how much they actually care about me. Thanks so much everyone who reads, and comments to my blog.

Next weekend we are attending three holiday parties. The first one is Cole's entire family meeting for their annual Christmas Party. The second is one we are hosting for his brother Adam's 30th birthday party and the third is my friends Christmas Party. I'm going to do some baking for them and for the one we are hosting there is going to be veggies and healthy options :)

This time of year can be so frighting but I am making a promise to myself to not forgo my exercise, no matter what else happens. Do any of my fellow bloggers have any strategies they are planning?

Tuesday, December 1, 2009


Yesterday I was feeling so blue I contemplated giving it all up. The dieting, the blogging, everything. When I am sick I can get pretty pessimistic. Of course I'm pretty much the opposite when healthy but what can you do.

I think it all started when I weighed in on Friday. Though I never really spoke my true goal out loud before I kinda had it in my mind that if I lost 1.6pds per week I could make it to my goal in a year. My brain knows this might not happen and that I shouldn't give up if it doesn't but try telling that to my heart.

I have spoken before about my having a defeatist attitude if things don't go perfectly as planned and how I'm trying to shake that. I liken myself to an clock and every so often the power goes out and you need to reset your clock.

Then I started feeling under the weather and thought "Why am I working so hard for something that won't happen?" I don't know why I get like this and sometimes I wonder if I'll ever truly be cured from this negativeness every so often.

The only real thing I know is that I just got back from my morning walk and I'm not giving up. Not yet, and hopefully not ever.

The last thing I want to do is start over with even more weight on in a couple of months, and from my track record that is exactly what would happen. Even if I don't lose 1.6 per week and if in a years time I'm only down 5, 10 , 15 pds at least it will be down.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Feeling Sluggish~

I skipped my morning walk. I haven't felt good in the last 2 days. Getting healtier has really improved my health so much for the better but the last two days I think I have a bug-just a headache, ear thingy but it stinks-boo.

At work tonight during break I was productive and addressed my Christmas cards. I'm on the ww forums and we are having a card exchange so that is pretty fun.

This weekend we finally found a peanut free gingerbread house as my niece is allergic. I'm hoping to do all kinds of crafty things with her during Christmas.

My eating has been really good but I so hate missing a workout as I know I need it to lose the weight. Hopefully a little extra rest today and tomorrow I'll be back with avengence. Can't stress enough how much I cannot wait to be off nights.

Does anyone else already feel tired from the Holidays? haha-

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Tis the Season~

On Friday I went to get weighed and only lost .8 of a pound. It can be frustrating to do everything right and not even make it to a whole pound but I know its in there somewhere just fighting to get out so I never lose heart anymore-like I said this bod will do what it will do-no point get discouraged its what it wants and I won't let it happen.

It turns out that with the American Thanksgiving we didn't have overtime at work this week due to having a little less volume. I was actually disappointed cause I wanted that cash for Xmas but what ya gonna do?

Cole's in the Kingswood gym here-I used to be too but quit to walk outside-just love the outdoors, keeps me more motivated. Anyways they had a Christmas Party for their members as an appreciation thing. Really nice. It had all kinds of bowling, laser tag, games, prizes, pizza, cake, etc.
Not the best pics and Cole even looks sad in his, haha~I wore my Beatles shirt that I haven't fit into in ages and put on some black nail polish-Looked a bit trendy for the first time in 12 years. Disappointing that I let my 20's go by being overweight-so many trends passed me by-Not my 30's though.

I hate to admit it but I actually like bowling shoes, I know I stand alone in this but I find them so cute. Not the best pic either but you get the idea :)

Anyways my friend who was supposed to be quitting ww ended up coming to the meeting on Friday. I was happy. She is also in the gym with Cole so they were at the party as well. She said she hates eating around me in case I judge her. I don't. I eat stuff too, especially on the weekends.

I had pizza and some cake. I was kinda surprised that for a gym's party they didn't provide any water (only pop-which I gave up over 4 years ago). I kinda thought they would have some veggie trays and stuff. There I go assuming stuff-never assume, go prepared.

Today I went for my morning walk and it was raining and so cold. When I came home we had sort of a lazy day and then in the late afternoon we had some Subway and went to the Christmas Parade. I worked at Subway for 4 years and I could eat it every day-love it so much. Here's a pic of me and Cole freezing our butts off at the Christmas Parade-it was so cold we didn't even stick around for the big guy.For a couple of months now I've been seeing advertisements for these mugs from Tim Horton's, only $3.99 and obviously reusable. So pretty, so green. I went to all the Tim's here and couldn't get one. I thought I was destined to walk this earth without one and then today I finally found one~ Yah.

Cole likes that its the little things that make me happy and so do I. Anyways I have to go get prepared for another week. Hopefully we'll have a lazy weekend next week with my overtime, on the 12th we have 3 parties and one of them we are hosting. So busy-but fun~

Thursday, November 26, 2009

A little point.

Just a quick post before I head to work. Happy Thanksgiving to my American Friends and Family. Wish I were enjoying a delicious Turkey today.

I get weighed tomorrow and I can't wait-I don't weigh during the week so I don't get discouraged so I really have no idea, I did everything right but this bod will do what it will do, haha.

Its so surprising when I haul out my points finder and discover something is lower in points than I would have thought. The ham I put on my sandwich seems a little thick to me and its only 1pt. Yah. If I didn't know I would have at least though 2.

Stuff like that makes me happy :)

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Sometimes Change is Good

Just got home from another work night. I cannot tell you all how excited I am to get the day shift. I start in January. What sucks is the fact that Cole will still be working nights, we are hoping something opens up for him soon.
Working nights while trying to lose weight is unbelievably hard. The preparing of healthy meals & snacks, and having to make sure to get good rest when your body is technically supposed to be awake, its a hassle.
We'd of course still have to do these things when working days but it seems different, haha. So many people that we work with are overweight and many are obese. It doesn't help that they have vending machines that actually take debit and credit cards, I only wish I were joking. Neither Cole nor I have purchased anything from them in over two years and even then it was gum.
Well folks I did something I never thought in a million years I would do. I wore out a pair of sneakers, from actual exercise. I'm getting a pair in December, hopefully for Christmas but if not I'll get a pair for myself, I can't wait.

Something else that is pretty exciting. Well I got engaged in July and the night Cole proposed I could hardly fit my ring on, in my defense we had did lots of walking that day doing touristy things, haha. Well guess what? It hardly fits me now-as in-too big. Its flopping all over the place. I'm going to get a ring sizer thingy cause I of course still want to lose more. So exciting. Well off I go in my sneaks for another walk, Cole's going to help me do some ab exercises when I get back, oh what joy, haha.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Superior Scribbler Award-My first bloggie.

My lovely friend Katie from Blog Katie J is on her way has bestowed me with the Superior Scribbler award. Its so amazing that people not only read my blog but actually like it too.

The Rules & Regulations are as follows:
Each Superior Scribbler must in turn pass the award on to five most deserving bloggers
Each Superior Scribbler must link to the author and the name of the blog from whom s/he has received the award.
Each Superior Scribbler must display the award on his/her blog, and link to The Scholastic Scribe, which explains the award.
Each blogger who wins The Superior Scribbler Award must visit this post and add his/her name to the Mr Linky List. That way, they'll be able to keep up-to-date on everyone who receives this prestigious honor.
Each Superior Scribbler must post these rules on his/her blog.

Here are the 5 people that I think are Superior Scribblers too.
Tasha at Girl stuck in a rut
Joania at Joania's Weight Loss Journey
Fat Free at Fat(Free)Me
Enz at One of the 4 walls
There are so many wonderful blogs out there and these people inspire me to continue on and if you have not had a chance to read them I highly recommend you do so.
Getting my first bloggie has inspired me even more-stay tuned for some big results.

Monday, November 23, 2009


Do you ever find that you hear something and then seemingly everywhere you turn you hear it again. Its not quite deja vu, or a premonition, maybe its a true coincidence.

Either way lately like I've said before I have been surrounding myself with all things weight loss. Blogs, websites, books, magazines, shows, etc.

One of the topics that keeps coming up is Determination. Determination can be defined as :a fixed purpose or intention. This is something that was very lacking in my past attempts at weight loss.

I would be determined for a little while but then give up when I didn't get the desired results quickly. I didn't have realistic goals and that just set me up for failure.

I was listening to a podcast about weight loss and the pod caster said that people will often have the desire to lose weight but then after a while has passed and they are sitting in front of a piece of cake the cake seems like something more real than the future weight loss.

It really got me thinking cause in so many instances this has been true for me. I'll be going along great and then I would only have a small loss or whatever and the next thing I know I'm devouring something. It was like I said to myself oh well if you can't lose fast than why bother losing at all.

The mind is really such a tricky thing and that's why I am constantly surrounding myself, I have to work on the mind-I don't want this to be all for not, I want to change.

Sunday, November 22, 2009


My friend that just started going to ww like two months ago is quitting til after the new year. I'm really disappointed, especially since we go together and it was fun. She said with all the Xmas parties and stuff but she was doing so well the last few weeks. We were going to motivate each other.

What a total bummer. Luckily for me I started this journey by myself and made it a point to not need anyone to help me get to my goal. When I walk-its by myself, I blog by myself, and prepare my meals by myself. In the past when I needed a partner to motivate me, I failed.

This is not to say that I won't miss having her at my meetings, I will. It sucks too that in January I have to find a new meeting since I'll be working morning.

Well off to work I go to start another work week. Have a great week to all my bloggies.