Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Tired, oh so tired.

My official vacation starts on July 9th and boy am I ready. I feel tired. So very tired. I'm tired of packing lunches, cooking suppers, wearing dress clothes, setting the alarm clock, hardly seeing Cole.

My mother and her sisters are coming to visit on the 25th of June and are they are all staying for a week, my mother may stay for a few days beyond that. I'm getting really excited to see them all.

Here is a pic of mom and myself in New Hampshire a couple of years ago-I have lost around 40lbs since that pic so that makes me feel good.

Speaking of being tired I just feel really tired with my "trying to lose weight" life. Its been 17 years and while I now feel this is more of a lifestyle change its still a hard thing to change in my mind.

I look around my office and I see woman of all sizes eating food with seemingly not thought. Woman coming back from the local coffee joint with muffins, donuts, whatever and I can honestly say that though in the past I may have eaten those things-it was always a huge thought of some sort and more than likely a negative one.

That's not to say that I wish I could eat like that all the time because, of course, I still want to be healthy but it would be nice not to have this voice over in my head every time I eat a bit.

Most of the blogs I am following regularly seem to have their act so together. Do any of you just feel tired like me?


  1. I often do. It is hard; not just a question of "eating less & moving more" (although that's the basic concept).

  2. Yes, I too feel tired sometimes. I get tired of always thinking about calories or points, and the scale and weighing etc. When I start to think like that I remind myself that I'm much more tired of being fat. I'm tired of not being able to wear what I want, or do all the things I want. It helps me. I also don't want to get tired of having some disease down the road that I could have avoided by taking care of my health.

    Hang in there!! It will become more and more "normal" and won't seem like so much effort over time. Besides, many people you see eating that stuff, really do care and are probably in a funk like we were right? Yes!

    Have a good day my friend :-)

  3. Candace!! You don't even look like the same person! 40 pounds makes a big difference!

    I'm glad to hear vacation starts soon. Having your mom around will be nice. :)

    Girl, that voice in your head is your friend. It helped you lose 40 pounds, remember?! Yea, this is tough sometimes, and it sucks to see other people eating crap that looks amazing. Ramsey and I were at a different park this morning, and it's right next to a pizza place. I used to eat large pizzas by myself on a regular basis. That smell really set me off today! Like you said, we still want to be healthy. Small indulgences are fine sometimes - I may have pizza one night this week! - but people like us can't make a habit out of it if we want to be successful losers. Haha, too bad we weren't blessed with skinny genes!

    Remember - YOU are in control of yours points; they are not in control of you. You don't have to do this - you're choosing to.

    You're tired? Girl, if this journey isn't tough, if it doesn't tire you out sometimes, you aren't doing it right! Weight loss is incredibly hard, but the results are so worth it. Stick with it. You've already come so far. :)

    Have a great week, Can!!

  4. It does get relentless doesn't it. I feel the same way as you. I would like to go one day without agonizing over it - but it is a tightrope walk. If I don't track it in some way I could go WAY overboard.

    Your momma is cute! It will be wonderful for you to visit with her and your aunties and do fun stuff. Have a wonderful time!

  5. I'm definitely tired of being in limbo...I just want to get to my goal weight and focus on staying there!! I hope you and your mom and sisters have a great time together!