The stressful weekend ends~

Well the weekend is drawing to a near. With mom arriving on Friday I am anxious for the week to speed along.


This past weekend was at first very stressful but it ended happily. We went in for overtime on Friday night to make some extra cash for when my family come. I usually have a nap on Friday but I was so nervous about visiting the in-laws that I couldn't calm down enough to sleep.


So I got off overtime at 3am on Sat and we slept about 4 hrs. We drove out to Cole's parents place and they were tense and stuff but we stayed 1 1/2 hrs. The conversation was just about everything going on in the family, etc. Then we left and we were almost home when I realised I forgot my purse there, bummer.


So we went to Kelly & Rodney's swimming and had a great time and then went out for Chinese with my friend Kim, this weekend we forgot out camera home, we are very forgetful.


We got home like 8pm and Cole's parents didn't even call to say my purse was there, he called to ask them if they would be coming in the next few days as they live 45 mins out of the city and she said I was just about to email you. They are really strange acting like they can't call or anything and then she wrote on Cole's facebook that she appreciated the visit. I told him that I have a feeling that she probably bad-mouthed me so much that she doesn't want to write on my wall because her friends will see it.


So there it is we tried, yet again, we will have to see how they act now-I have a feeling it will be same ole, same ole.


I don't know how I'm going to make it through this week waiting for mom to arrive, I'm too excited!!!

Thanks everyone for the comments on my last post-I never realised how many bowel experts I had right at my fingertips-I took some of your advice and things are getting a lot better.

The scale stayed the same.

Well I weighed in and I stayed the same again. So much for my big goal but at least I didn't gain. Here's the thing-not to get graphic but
most of my food seems to be still with me. I've eaten lots of fiber, veggies, drank tons of water but nothing is happening. This has always been a problem for me but now more than ever.

This has been my breakfast all week-Fruit, fiber one cereal and flax seeds. Something has got to give soon.

Tonight both Cole & I are working overtime and than tomorrow we are visiting his parents for fathers day-oh joy oh bliss. Wish us luck.

Have a great weekend peeps~

Tired, oh so tired.

My official vacation starts on July 9th and boy am I ready. I feel tired. So very tired. I'm tired of packing lunches, cooking suppers, wearing dress clothes, setting the alarm clock, hardly seeing Cole.

My mother and her sisters are coming to visit on the 25th of June and are they are all staying for a week, my mother may stay for a few days beyond that. I'm getting really excited to see them all.

Here is a pic of mom and myself in New Hampshire a couple of years ago-I have lost around 40lbs since that pic so that makes me feel good.

Speaking of being tired I just feel really tired with my "trying to lose weight" life. Its been 17 years and while I now feel this is more of a lifestyle change its still a hard thing to change in my mind.

I look around my office and I see woman of all sizes eating food with seemingly not thought. Woman coming back from the local coffee joint with muffins, donuts, whatever and I can honestly say that though in the past I may have eaten those things-it was always a huge thought of some sort and more than likely a negative one.

That's not to say that I wish I could eat like that all the time because, of course, I still want to be healthy but it would be nice not to have this voice over in my head every time I eat a bit.

Most of the blogs I am following regularly seem to have their act so together. Do any of you just feel tired like me?

The weekend went swimmingly~

Well this past weekend both Cole & I worked overtime on Friday night. Got off work at 3am, came home and slept 4 hours.

We got up and went to my friends flyball tournament. The dogs race this lane and have to bring back a ball, very competitive and Sandra's passion. She has four very well behaved dogs.

Cole & I went out to lunch at Harvey's I had a grilled Chicken burger on a whole wheat bun then we headed Kelly & Rodney's for a swim and a bbq.

This pic sorta reiterates my need to work on my stomach-its looks like I'm pregnant.Cole looking hot eating a Jos Louis.I'm pretending to be a poolgirlKelly & Rodney are such great friends, we were there for like 5 hours and we didn't stop laughing the whole time. I leave you now with pics of my nephew Ben and my niece Gabby-they don't get cuter than this.

This weAk in review!

I weighed myself tonight instead of tomorrow morning and it says I stayed the same. The morning would probably be lighter but I'm in a funk and wanted to get it over with. I'm supposed to be sleeping right now but I can't.Its crazy that this week is already almost over. This has been a hard week. I feel really tired. I didn't get much sleep over the weekend and was going to try and catch up on it Sunday but it didn't work so most of the week I just felt tired.

I like to come home from work and get in my workout in right away but I've been feeling like I had a dip in my blood sugar or something and had to stop twice-this is even after eating something before leaving work-really strange.

I'm still feeling tons of stress from this fight with the in-laws. They have made no contact other than her dropping in for 15 mins on Cole's birthday but now she is writing things on facebook again that we know are digs at us. Cole is seriously considering calling them and telling them he is done with the whole situation and he doesn't want anything to do with them.

I'm really torn because we have always been close to them and for one fight to explode like this is truly amazing. I guess I'm just in shock or something. I've never been one to enjoy conflict of any kind and this is tearing up my insides, just feel really queasy right now.

I told Cole that I always got the impression that they could cut people off really easily (like if they had disagreements with friends) but I never imagined it would be us, especially Cole. I just can't imagine how he would feel if they weren't at the wedding.

That is something else I am dealing with right now. We are pretty sure we are changing our travel agent. We didn't have anything major planned with the one we talked too yet but I sorta thought we would not really shop around. She got married in Dominican last year so I thought how perfect she can tell me a lot. To be honest, she hasn't.

We picked our first resort (that the parents stole) because of how classy it seemed and from the pics we were right. So anyways we settled on another one and she just came back this week with a high quote and said you can leave a deposit to hold it, no word about the wedding package, etc, anything, pertaining to what is included, etc. She also mentioned two other resorts that are nothing like what we want. I've asked her repeated questions about anything about her wedding that could help me, etc and got nothing.

So we sent our info to my cousin's best friend who's been a travel agent for close to 20 years and she seems really eager already. She told me our choice of resort was beautiful and they have awesome food. She wanted to know why we chose it and if we were open to others. I like that she seems to care what we want.

One good thing to come out of this week is that Cole surprised me with a new pair of workout pants. I had been using these old pair of yoga pants I got from old navy and they were too long so if I tried to run I would have to haul them up.

Its so strange but my dress pants I wear all the time our really baggy now so that I actually feel better in my workout clothes, haha. I'm already quite pleased with my rear view, its my stomach, inner thighs and my arms that need the most work now-any suggestions on the workouts you like the best are greatly appreciated!

Both Cole & I are going in for overtime tomorrow night so that makes it easier (yes, misery does love company) My friend Sandra from work is really into flyball (a sport for dogs) and they are having a tournament this weekend. I said I would drop down and they are having a bake sale so I made some choc chip cookie bars for her to make extra money.

Kelly emailed that they have the pool in this week so if its nice on Sat we will probably head over there for a couple of hours.

What type of things do you all do to get out of a funk? I so hate being down especially when it seems there is nothing I can do.

Moving in the right direction~

I lost 1 pound this week. I kinda expected more cause my wii thought I lost 3.1-haha. Regardless I am pleased because a loss is a loss after all. I'm going in for overtime tonight so that sucks the big one but Saturday we are going to find a place to swim and Sat night we are going to watch some movies so I'm excited for that.


Have a great weekend everyone~

Awesomeness~

This week has went by fast and its been a great one. A few weeks ago I wrote a post here that talked about how I am now viewing my dieting, exercise, etc as a lifetime change and honestly I've felt great ever since.

I don't know but it has all felt like something clicked. I feel happy in my own skin for the first time in such a long time. I find myself making more time for exercising and its just something natural now. I did great with my eating, even on the weekend, which has always posed problems for me. I guess I'm just proud. No matter what the scale says tomorrow morning I know I did myself proud.

This week two great things happened. I fit back into a pair of my dress pants that I haven't worn in years. In fact I remember the last time I wore them they were clinging so much to my thighs they looked too short-a really comfortable feeling I might add. Anyways now they are just right and even baggy in the legs.

And the other thing is that I can now fit into some of Cole's clothes. Here is a pic of me today before my walk wearing Cole's grey hoodie from American Eagle. I am truly excited and the smile is also because it is raining here and I'm a freak-I LOVE RAIN.Here is a pic of my current dream wedding dress-it changes often-hahaAlso I thought I would post a couple of hair styles I like so far - Which do you like the best?

A)B) C)In my last post I talked about wanting to set a big short term goal for myself and after putting much thought into it I decided to try to be under 200 by the end of June. This is a huge goal for me since it generally takes me a while to lose weight but I won't get discouraged if I don't so it can only help. Set any goals lately?

Inspiration~

Hello fellow bloggies. I can't believe its Wednesday already-how is that possible? This past weekend we had a real blast. Kelly & Rodney came for supper on Friday I made Spaghetti Pie, Caesar Salad, Garlic Bread and Apple Crisp with Ice Cream for dessert. I hadn't eaten hardly all day but I still only had a normal sized portion. So on Friday night we went to bed around 11pm and slept til 11am-so awesome. Then we ran a few errands and headed out to K&R's to try out the pool. It was super hot out but the pool was cold-didn't stop Cole from getting in. They are getting a heater this week so maybe I will get in soon, haha.

We had a barbecue with K&R, we brought hamburgers and hot dog and they had potatoes and pork chops so we sort of all ate whatever. I was proud of my portion then too. Usually on the weekends I tend to go way overboard but I felt this time I didn't.



On Sunday morning's Cole & I usually go for a walk so this time I surprised him and told him I wanted to run for 1 min and walk for 3. And I did it for around 30 mins then we walked. My legs still feel sore-haha.

In the last couple of weeks I've really been getting inspired by Cinci she is so super motivated and is really making me want to do this for once and for all. I'm thinking of setting a big small term goal to get me motivated but am really thinking about what it should be.

Anyone else thinking of a big small term goal?