Monday, February 1, 2010


Hey Everyone-I'm still here. After my horrible weigh in on Thursday evening I spent Friday feeling sorry for myself and then when I woke up on Saturday I had this crappy head cold, which I still have by the way.

I binged all weekend long and didn't exercise. Its me-I'm a self sabotager. My name is Candace and I'm a self sabotager. Right at the very moment I have a ear ache and a toothache-in fact the whole right side of my head generally aches.

For the first time in my life I feel like I've lost my appetite. Maybe I ate so much on the weekend I reached my cap of calories, whatever it is I forced myself to eat lunch and am trying to stay awake to force myself to eat supper.

Sometimes I feel like the journey to lose over a hundred pounds for me takes so long that its the main reason why I can't do it. I wonder if I can keep myself on track during the hard times to make it to the goal?


  1. I know how you feel. I didn't think I'd only lose 37 lbs in an entire year...but you know what...that is 37 lbs I will never see again and I am going to keep going forward.

    Come with me :) and we'll get there eventually.

  2. You can do it-look how far you have come in just a few short months. I've had my blog since last July and just now am making a true effort. Talk about wasting time!

    But back to you....the nice thing about binges is they do end. I do hope you feel better soon.

  3. Sometimes it seems relentless but it is SO worth it. Take care of yourself and hope you feel better soon!

  4. It's all relative. I've lost 16 since October and I feel like a flaming success. I wish it had been more but I'm so glad I took off what I did so far. I'm all inspired to keep going. I'm going to be a year older next year whether I weigh (fill in the blank) pounds LESS or not. I'm 55 ... wish I got a handle on my weight at 32.

  5. just found your blog

    your looking great

    keep it up :)

  6. Hi Candace - This is my first visit to your blog. I can totally relate to your frustration - and I also spent the weekend bingeing and seeking out all sources of sugar and related toxins. UGH. Self-sabotage is one of my identifiers too often. Getting better, but it's always a struggle. Your progress pictures show a lot of...progress! Excellent.

    And BTW - I see you're getting married in the DR in 2011. My daughter is in the Peace Corps there and we visited her last November. Beautiful place. I 'spect you'll be at one of those world-class resorts! We weren't, but I'm going back at some point so she and I can live it up.

    Good luck, and I'll be following your blog to watch you succeed. You can do this!

  7. Thanks everyone for the amazing support-it means the world to me :)

  8. Listen. YOU CAN DO THIS- You have a decision to make and you are the only one that can make it! We are here for you!

  9. I understand how you feel too. I had a bumpy year and only lost 25lbs of which I was relosing from gaining that back the year before!! I never give up. My life is too important. I try to look at it like this:

    You are living either way. You can choose to try your hardest and lose along the way or maintain or you can "let yourself go" and tell yourself you can't do it and gain, year after year. I will take any loss no matter how slow over the other outcome. Try to focus more on your health rather than the number on the scale or a dress size. It really helps me.

    You can do this!! ((HUGS))

  10. Girl, I wish the hard times were easy! You see that there is a pattern, and you're working on modifying it. There was a point where I'd actually gained 25 pounds since I started my weight-loss blog. How freaking horrible is that? You're down from where you started, and you have knowledge, support, and experience you didn't have before. Falling off the wagon sucks, but it happens. We're glad to see you back!!!!