Facing the past.

Today it is 31 degrees-its so freaking hot. I walked on my 15 min break and I was soaked when I got back to work. I wish I could work for a company that provides a gym but what can you do :(

I walked home but at least I had my air conditioner to look forward to. I've made a major accomplishment in my life last week: I finally faced my financial situation.

I made some bad financial decisions when I was 18 (ie student loans) and honestly I've been checked out ever since. In the last 5 years I've really taught myself how to handle my money, but I still didn't face my past. So I went to a financial advisor and it wasn't even as bad as I thought.

I pictured bankruptcy, complete embarrassment, etc but it turns out I found him easy to talk to and I will make payments and I will be able to pay it off way sooner than expected.

I sometimes wonder if a lot of my weight issues have to deal with my financial issues. I've stressed about this for so long that I can remember waking from a deep sleep and just trying to focus on something else. My moral is that your imagination is often way worst than reality so the best thing to do would be to face it and get it over with---it can suck big time but the weight that is off my shoulders is unimaginable.