Man I don't feel good. I still have the cold-cold sore, on and off earache, and now I have the tom's. This sucks. I have to face the scale at ww tonight-then I have to post it-boo. I think I realized something about myself yesterday. I remember blogging before about having a certain routine about when I eat. Ex.. liking to always sit down to eat, having a nice plate, etc. While these things can be good in the sense that you realize you are eating and slowing down I do know the pitfall.....
This sort of routine will often delay me from having my snacks and therefore by the time I will get to my snack I end up reaching for more. I never really knew I was so into a routine until yesterday.
I walk home from work and right away I usually do the dishes, pack lunches, get supper ready, have a shower than have a snack, usually by then I am really super duper hungry.
Yesterday I came home and had to call a store, then I set about finding the biggest loser on the web, and got into my email/facebook/blogger. Before I knew it a bit of time had gotten ahead of me and I wondered if I should have my snack before my cleaning but I felt anxious to just have a snack on the go without sitting down-yes I'm a weirdo.
I think over the weekend I'm going to try-both days-to just casually snack on the go. Once I started gaining weight I always felt like I couldn't or maybe didn't want to eat in public. It feels like people will pity me, think I'm weak, etc. I always envy people who are just so casual about eating, and they should be, so should I. Would people really grudge me eating a healthy snack? Why do I make it all such a big deal?
I wouldn't worry so much about how you eat. It's what you eat. I think you have this thing figured out. You have already proven you can lose-just keep doing what you have been and I think you'll reach your ultimate goal.
ReplyDeleteIt is so hard not to over-think eating and not to worry about what other people think about what you're eating. Most people are probably too busy with other stuff to notice what you're eating. The people who actually do pay attention and judge you for it? Well, their opinions are worthless. Eating in public can be good because it encourages you to make healthy decisions. It's funny because overweight people seem to worry about two things when eating in public: We either don't want people to think, 'Oh, look at the fat girl eating,' or we are worried that people will realize we are on a diet.
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