Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Pray for me.

Tomorrow is the day-my moment of truth. I really don't know why I torture myself in this way. Why didn't I just eat healthy? Why do I have no self control sometimes? Why-when I'm bad I'm really bad?

The questions circling in my head are driving me mad and honestly I still don't really have the answers. I don't know why I can't say no to food. I don't know why I do the things that lead me to fail.

The only thing I do know is that blogging is my therapy. My followers are my shrinks. Please don't bill me-healthy eating gets expensive.

Maybe in due time I'll finally figure out why I do what I do and how to stop the behavior-until then I have to go to my meeting tomorrow and that's that.

6 comments:

  1. Good luck tomorrow!! The shrinks are all here waiting to support you no matter what! :D

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  2. Hang in there Miss Candace and TRY not to be so stressed about it!

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  3. Hi C.,

    Hey, hang in there. You are in a journey, and it could be a bumpy ride right now, but it will get better and you will arrive at your destination safe and sound. :)

    I've started to read "The End of Overeating", which helps to understand why we eat what we eat, and why is so hard to put that fork down!

    I have you in my prayers ...

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  4. Thanks so much ladies-Tathi I will have to get that book-sounds like a must read for me.

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  5. Candace, you are strong , and you can do this, but YOU need to hear yourself saying this. Try making a list of the reasons getting healthy and losing weight means so much to you. I do this and look at it often. It's not an easy journey and you'll go through tough times like these, we all do. Chin up, and remember that every day is a new fresh start! Good luck tomorrow. No matter what the outcome, you CAN do this :)

    P.S. I just got the end over eating book for xmas...haven't read it yet... another one that may help you is the BECK Book.

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  6. Hang in there! This is a PROCESS. You have made so much progress already. Keep it up!!

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